Sanity when will you be for me
When will I marry peace and give birth to serenity
When will I finally rest on the chest of freedom
Will I ever be able to write a book of wisdom
Full of all the lessons I've learned in life
So others can learn from my mistakes and do right
Am I going to be stuck in this one place
Tied to the ground and falling flat on my face
Or will I find a way
To get through what they say
Sanity when will you be for me
Or are you constantly full of trickery
Designed to make me fall to my knees
And wish that the sperm and the egg had never met in my mother's belly
The stregnth that I once posessed has turned into jelly
And all that is felt is me
Searching for sanity
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
My Mind
So much runnin new paths in my mind its hard to find a sanity
Try to stop movin but only to still see no clarity
And now in my pause I have to catch up witth the world
Being slapped with womanhood but still longing to be a girl
My gameplan was blown out the door two many sunrises ago
Still lookin at snapshots from the past cause I cant let go
My life has been twisted and if there was a exit I missed it
The ending of this path has been erased for me now
And every easy path has been unwillingly passedby
A storm took all my dreaming days and placed a reality that I swallowed whole
A price was payed for a endless goal
So I cant make the mistakes of those before me
But preventing such is harder then I thought it would be
Mistakes were made for reasons that I can now see
And this dude Has lost his mind as if mine is not full enough
He calls trying to make it rough
Add a thorn to the crown in my life
A chip i cant brush off
Only time will tell when this play will end
So then I can walk off
The stage I set and till this day lie to say I do not regret
But one day he will be a memory for meFor some reason now he cant be?
You gave me the life He gave you
So Im gonna worry too
When I cant press the pause button it hurts to watch your movie
With so many missing scenes I only know what you show me
I dont know why its gotta be so hard for you
Is it right for me to say its hard for me too
When what you go through is what I cant relate to
Even though Im your child my years arent as painted
So all I can do is give embraces and keep my actions from being tainted
I mean there's nuthing I could say So I'll just pray
So much runnin new paths in my mind its hard to find a sanity
Try to stop movin but only to still see no clarity
So i just walk cause theres no use trying to catch up with the world
Or my mind
Try to stop movin but only to still see no clarity
And now in my pause I have to catch up witth the world
Being slapped with womanhood but still longing to be a girl
My gameplan was blown out the door two many sunrises ago
Still lookin at snapshots from the past cause I cant let go
My life has been twisted and if there was a exit I missed it
The ending of this path has been erased for me now
And every easy path has been unwillingly passedby
A storm took all my dreaming days and placed a reality that I swallowed whole
A price was payed for a endless goal
So I cant make the mistakes of those before me
But preventing such is harder then I thought it would be
Mistakes were made for reasons that I can now see
And this dude Has lost his mind as if mine is not full enough
He calls trying to make it rough
Add a thorn to the crown in my life
A chip i cant brush off
Only time will tell when this play will end
So then I can walk off
The stage I set and till this day lie to say I do not regret
But one day he will be a memory for meFor some reason now he cant be?
You gave me the life He gave you
So Im gonna worry too
When I cant press the pause button it hurts to watch your movie
With so many missing scenes I only know what you show me
I dont know why its gotta be so hard for you
Is it right for me to say its hard for me too
When what you go through is what I cant relate to
Even though Im your child my years arent as painted
So all I can do is give embraces and keep my actions from being tainted
I mean there's nuthing I could say So I'll just pray
So much runnin new paths in my mind its hard to find a sanity
Try to stop movin but only to still see no clarity
So i just walk cause theres no use trying to catch up with the world
Or my mind
Thursday, April 19, 2007
InspiRED
I wanna be in his arms
But I don't want ya'll to think I need to
I wanna love him
But I don't want ya'll to know I do
I dont want you to pass on your judgements and your looks
Do I really wanna hear why we won't work
Cause he cares when you'll don't
He gives when ya'll won't
And it really doesn't matter
Im not a fool trust me I've searched for better
But down to the wire no one matches his love or desire
So why should I search for what you want
When what I need has his arms wrapped around my soul
I won't let yall take me apart
When he makes me whole
So no, I wont hear you tell me I'm too young to feel
I won't lose focus like ya'll think
I'll keep whats real...real
I hope to be in his arms and I will
I will always love him
Despite what ya'll want me to do
I've let go of old and found new
And your judgements won't phase me
Cause many talk but I hear so few
ForRed
But I don't want ya'll to think I need to
I wanna love him
But I don't want ya'll to know I do
I dont want you to pass on your judgements and your looks
Do I really wanna hear why we won't work
Cause he cares when you'll don't
He gives when ya'll won't
And it really doesn't matter
Im not a fool trust me I've searched for better
But down to the wire no one matches his love or desire
So why should I search for what you want
When what I need has his arms wrapped around my soul
I won't let yall take me apart
When he makes me whole
So no, I wont hear you tell me I'm too young to feel
I won't lose focus like ya'll think
I'll keep whats real...real
I hope to be in his arms and I will
I will always love him
Despite what ya'll want me to do
I've let go of old and found new
And your judgements won't phase me
Cause many talk but I hear so few
ForRed
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Im Ready For The Stage
Im ready for the stage
And what comes next
For the independent phase and giving my best
But most of all Im ready for the walk
To show that I made it and it wasn't just talk
I'm ready for that paper that means so much
A symbol of so much for the people Iv'e touched
Im ready for the feeling to know that Iv'e won
To know what I've accomplished but still I'm not done
Im ready for that cap and gown
Because through It all nuthin held me down
Alot of friends didn't make it to the stage
But in my book theyr'e just another page
Because I am ready and Its been a long wait
And what comes next
For the independent phase and giving my best
But most of all Im ready for the walk
To show that I made it and it wasn't just talk
I'm ready for that paper that means so much
A symbol of so much for the people Iv'e touched
Im ready for the feeling to know that Iv'e won
To know what I've accomplished but still I'm not done
Im ready for that cap and gown
Because through It all nuthin held me down
Alot of friends didn't make it to the stage
But in my book theyr'e just another page
Because I am ready and Its been a long wait
2007 is here and Im ready to graduate
Im ready for the stage
Monday, April 2, 2007
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Through My Eyes
Through my eyes I see the you in me
I see your hands and toes
Your skin and all
I see your habits and faults
But I am just a part of you as I am of her
And that scares me
Will I carry your burdens
Will I be just as wrong as you were
Will my actions reflect you
I try hard not to make her as mad as you've made her
Or disappointed or hurt
But you have disappointed and hurt me
Something I won't do to others consciously
So now I look at the me in me and know that it different from the you
I see your hands and toes
Your skin and all
I see your habits and faults
But I am just a part of you as I am of her
And that scares me
Will I carry your burdens
Will I be just as wrong as you were
Will my actions reflect you
I try hard not to make her as mad as you've made her
Or disappointed or hurt
But you have disappointed and hurt me
Something I won't do to others consciously
So now I look at the me in me and know that it different from the you
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Lets Play Girl
Ode to Jazzy B
We played Girl all the time
We had fun, we made rhymes
We were choreographers for our own dance
Disney movies had us in a trance
We played Girl all the time
We made mountains to climb
We built our own homes
And talked on imaginary phones
We played Girl all the time
I seek and you hide
We both had babies
And were married to celebrities
Oh God She Crazy was our game
Every day we had a different name
One day we'll have little ones
Who will want to have fun
And we'll tell them to play Girl
All the time
We played Girl all the time
We had fun, we made rhymes
We were choreographers for our own dance
Disney movies had us in a trance
We played Girl all the time
We made mountains to climb
We built our own homes
And talked on imaginary phones
We played Girl all the time
I seek and you hide
We both had babies
And were married to celebrities
Oh God She Crazy was our game
Every day we had a different name
One day we'll have little ones
Who will want to have fun
And we'll tell them to play Girl
All the time
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Potential
I try to let my dreams carry me
Let my aspirations show me where I'll spend my eternity
Never forgetting that my greatest obstacle is within
Praying constantly that my souls' strength doesn't wear thin
Fading into transparency leaving me unable to see, left blind
To the fact that my potential is one too difficult to find
So I decide to let my dreams carry me
Until I discover who I really want to be
Because other peoples images cloud my view of the sky
So in my blindness I let what I need pass me by
And hold on to what I want only to be too soon let go
Dropped by false hopes into those desperate seas
Until I am ready for my dreams to carry me
When I am finally In the arms of my asperations
I am free with my own creations
My beautiful Frankestiens made from the parts of me
Completed dreams like the gift of a birth given so preciously
Leaving me to inspire others to be carried by their dreams
Let my aspirations show me where I'll spend my eternity
Never forgetting that my greatest obstacle is within
Praying constantly that my souls' strength doesn't wear thin
Fading into transparency leaving me unable to see, left blind
To the fact that my potential is one too difficult to find
So I decide to let my dreams carry me
Until I discover who I really want to be
Because other peoples images cloud my view of the sky
So in my blindness I let what I need pass me by
And hold on to what I want only to be too soon let go
Dropped by false hopes into those desperate seas
Until I am ready for my dreams to carry me
When I am finally In the arms of my asperations
I am free with my own creations
My beautiful Frankestiens made from the parts of me
Completed dreams like the gift of a birth given so preciously
Leaving me to inspire others to be carried by their dreams
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